Monday, September 23, 2013

It's been a week... @-@

It's been a week since I've had a drink of alcohol. Erik, the dog and cat are still alive and I'm still somewhat sane. I temporarily went back on my prozac just to get me through my anxiety. Having good and bad days...good and bad moments, but in general hanging in there. The first two to three days were the worst. My nerves were like 6 inches above my skin. Not the DT's...just anxious and jittery. I've seen the DT's with my ex-husband...I wasn't even close. (I honestly think that because of the gastric bypass, my system handles things a little differently...I think the alcohol runs through my system faster so it isn't seeping out of my pores like it does with a normal alcoholic). My poor husband was on the verge of pouring a drink down my throat himself those first few days was that bad. I was basically like DON'T TOUCH ME DON'T TALK TO ME DON'T LOOK AT ME!!! o_O It's better now. ;-)

Right now I believe it's more mind over matter. Just have to look at it the same way I did when I made the decision to have the bypass. I knew I would never be able to drink pop again and I miss it, but it's just something I have to deal with. I think the same is going to be true with alcohol. I'll miss it, but just have to deal with it. It's only been a week so we'll see how it goes.

Thinking clearly now...some things haven't changed. I still love my husband, love my job, want to move out of our house into a smaller place and I still detest Obama, Reid, Pelosi and my brother-in-law. lol! :-)

We had a nice vacation...very relaxing! Didn't do a whole lot...went antiquing one day, movies a couple of times, but mostly just relaxed. Gave us a chance to clear our minds a little bit. We only have a few more weeks left of camping. It's okay though, we have so much to do around the house that we've neglected over camping season. Will hopefully get a lot taken care of over the winter.

It's amazing how quickly this past year has gone. I can't believe it's almost Christmas!! I would swear that we just celebrated that a couple of months ago. It's almost scary how fast time is flying by us. Honestly, the older we get, the faster it flies. (Of course it doesn't help that I was blitzed through the majority of it...I guess that would make it go faster..right?!?!?) sighhh...

Oh goes on and the Bears are 3-0. AWESOMESAUCE!!! :-D

Take care and God bless!! :-)


  1. Ronda...You continue to hang in there, girl!
    P.S. I'm with you on the thoughts of Obama, Pelozi, and Reid.
    My New Year's resolution was to give up drinking sodas, so I haven't had a Dr. Pepper, Coca Cola or ANY carbonated beverage since January 1. Not a day goes by that I don't want one, but each day, week, and month is easier.
    You go girl; I'm proud of you for giving up the alcohol.
    Love and hugs,

    1. Thanks Jackie! :-)
      I really didn't think it would be so bad not having a soda, but it kinda sucks. Everytime I hear someone pop open a can and I hear the mouth waters. o_O's really the only thing I miss. I can't have anything carbonated. I can't even have sparkling water which is something I used to enjoy. I can eat sweets in very limited amounts, but I can still have them. Sweets were never a huge problem with me.
      Good for you on giving up sodas!! It's funny what you want when you can't have it. It's like we haven't had a bathtub in about 4-5 years and I always hated taking a bath. I'm a shower person. Now all I talk about to Erik is how I can't wait to take a bath when the bathroom gets done. Very odd! Humans are strange creatures to be sure. ;-)

    2. I understand, Ronda!
      Yes...the sound of that Nehi Orange soda can popping open does something to my taste buds! Gee whiz!! But, I made the commitment, and I'm sticking to it. I haven't even had a sip...not a taste of soda, and that's a biiiig thing for me. I probably drank 4 or more cans of Dr. Pepper a day. My doctor told me that since I have osteoporosis, that sodas aren't good for my bones (probably not good for any of us in any way)...but they taste soooo good.
      Remember, I'm cheering you on here!
      You cheer for me too!!!

    3. lol! Will do! I'm with ya! :-)

      I was a diet Coke drinker myself. I didn't even drink that much...maybe 3-5 a week...sometimes less. But it's the only thing I really crave and it's the only thing I can't have. it's alcohol...sigh. At least I can still enjoy ice cream once in a limited amounts of course. Chocolate hasn't disappeared from my diet. Even though I wasn't that big on sweets, I think if I had to go completely without them, I might have had more of a problem. Erik would have a HUGE problem without sweets. He's diabetic and has a terrible time. He loves sweets!

      Anyway...thanks for your support! It is greatly appreciated and I will be sitting here saying a little prayer to help you through your daily struggle (getting easier though) of Dr. Pepper and Nehi Orange addiction. :-D

      We can do it girl!!! ;-)

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  3. I'm very proud of Ronda, it's not an easy row to hoe and while I don't drink much I have huge issues with sweets and I need to cut them out because in the end both habits can kills us...

    1. Tanks hon...we both have work to do. We can dooo eeet!! :-D