Monday, September 23, 2013

It's been a week... @-@

It's been a week since I've had a drink of alcohol. Erik, the dog and cat are still alive and I'm still somewhat sane. I temporarily went back on my prozac just to get me through my anxiety. Having good and bad days...good and bad moments, but in general hanging in there. The first two to three days were the worst. My nerves were like 6 inches above my skin. Not the DT's...just anxious and jittery. I've seen the DT's with my ex-husband...I wasn't even close. (I honestly think that because of the gastric bypass, my system handles things a little differently...I think the alcohol runs through my system faster so it isn't seeping out of my pores like it does with a normal alcoholic). My poor husband was on the verge of pouring a drink down my throat himself those first few days though...it was that bad. I was basically like DON'T TOUCH ME DON'T TALK TO ME DON'T LOOK AT ME!!! o_O It's better now. ;-)

Right now I believe it's more mind over matter. Just have to look at it the same way I did when I made the decision to have the bypass. I knew I would never be able to drink pop again and I miss it, but it's just something I have to deal with. I think the same is going to be true with alcohol. I'll miss it, but just have to deal with it. It's only been a week so we'll see how it goes.

Thinking clearly now...some things haven't changed. I still love my husband, love my job, want to move out of our house into a smaller place and I still detest Obama, Reid, Pelosi and my brother-in-law. lol! :-)

We had a nice vacation...very relaxing! Didn't do a whole lot...went antiquing one day, movies a couple of times, but mostly just relaxed. Gave us a chance to clear our minds a little bit. We only have a few more weeks left of camping. It's okay though, we have so much to do around the house that we've neglected over camping season. Will hopefully get a lot taken care of over the winter.

It's amazing how quickly this past year has gone. I can't believe it's almost Christmas!! I would swear that we just celebrated that a couple of months ago. It's almost scary how fast time is flying by us. Honestly, the older we get, the faster it flies. (Of course it doesn't help that I was blitzed through the majority of it...I guess that would make it go faster..right?!?!?) sighhh...

Oh well...life goes on and the Bears are 3-0. AWESOMESAUCE!!! :-D

Take care and God bless!! :-)


Monday, September 16, 2013

Happy Aunt!!

Nothing makes me happier than to fix a meal and have someone enjoy it. I love cooking and I don't always succeed in all the dishes I make..although hubby disagrees and says he likes all my food...but it made me all warm and fuzzy inside on Saturday when I read a letter from our nephew Jared. He had sent it to his mom (my sister) and it was a list of food he wants when he comes home on leave from basic training. On his list were 3 things that he specifically stated as 'Aunt Ronda's'...Aunt Ronda's chili, Aunt Ronda's meat loaf and the beef and chicken sandwiches Aunt Ronda made at the RV. That is such a huge deal to me to know that someone other than my husband actually enjoys my food. :-) Especially my Jaredbobared!!

What is so funny is none of those 3 dishes include bacon which is his favorite thing. He had stayed with us one weekend at the RV and I made bacon and eggs one morning and used an entire package of bacon (Erik is also a bacon lover)...I think I had one piece and those two finished off the rest. Jared came up to me after breakfast and hugged me real tight. When I went to let go he hugged me even tighter and just held on. He just kept saying thank you so much for fixing me REAL bacon!! I guess Kelly (my sis) and his dad and stepmom use the stuff that is pre-cooked and then microwaved. So this was a treat for him...I didn't know that. So, I guess if he's home while we're still out there...I'll just have to fix him some bacon along with the other dishes. :-)

I'm trying to figure out a way to afford a couple of plane tickets to go to his graduation. I don't think we can do it, so I'll just have to make up for it by making his tummy happy when he gets home. :-) I can't wait to see him!!

Our nephew Nick is in ROTC right now and plans on joining the Army after he graduates. We spent most of Saturday with Kelly, Nick and my parents and Nick talked a lot about his plans for the future. I hope it all works out for him. He's really into it right now but also has a girlfriend and I hope that doesn't deter him from his goals. He's been gung-ho for the service since he was old enough to talk. Everything was Army this and Army that. It's funny because it was the same way with Tyler who is in the Navy and Jared now in the Marines. They all talked about the service since they were little and so far two of them have reached their goals.
I'm so proud of them!!

We're trying to talk Rachel (their younger sister) into the Air Force so that Kelly can say each of her children were in a different branch of service, but she's only 12 right now and SO not interested. I guess we'll see what the future holds. :-)

Take care and God bless!! :-D

Friday, September 6, 2013

Great week!

Hubby and I weren't able to celebrate our anniversary on our anniversary (Erik had to work) so we did it last night instead. We went to the movies and saw 'Star Trek: Into Darkness' AWESOME!!!!!! After the movie we went out for a wonderful steak dinner then watched the first Star Trek movie with the same new characters. Just had to do it! :-) Course I'm a huge Star Trek fan and I have to say that they did a fantastic job of getting the characters down. Very impressed!
We took off early today and went antiquing. It's been quite a while since we went antiquing. I have to say...we could have gone crazy in that place, but we didn't. We each bought a book. Total of less than $20.00. We did good! :-)
We refinanced our home so we can finally put some money in the bank. That's another reason we didn't go crazy at the antique mall. We're going to have a garage sale at my sister's place in a couple of weeks. Try and get rid of some stuff. This winter we're gonna get serious and start selling off some of the big stuff we've collected. Really want to start downsizing..would love to sell the house and just get maybe a small condo or something like that.
Tomorrow night we're going to the drive-in with my sister, niece and nephew. Going to see 'The Heat' and 'We are the Millers'. Maybe go to the apple orchard in the afternoon with my parents. Depends on how hot it gets.
Then on Sunday we got the Bears game! GO BEARS!!! :-) IT'S FOOTBALL SEASON!!! WOOHOOOO!!! :-)

That's all for now...take care and God bless! :-)